I Watched You Break Yourself In Two And Try To Give Me Half

Have you ever met someone who completely changes your outlook on life? Someone who just makes you realise that the bad things, aren’t so bad, someone who makes you see that the good things, really are something special? Because I mean, up until now I thought I knew what it felt like to fall for someone properly, but I’m not sure I had any idea what it could really feel like. I know what it’s like for you to want to be with someone, and for you to be unsure of life without them, but the thing is this time it’s different.

Back in March, I met someone who it’s safe to say has shaken my world up, no end. Someone who has made me realise I deserve better than what I was settling for, he’s caring, and patient, and he doesn’t ask too many questions, but the ones he asks are always on point… I can talk to pretty much anyone about pretty much anything, but being able to talk to someone for hours upon hours, and still have something to talk about, or something to say at the end, probably deserves a little bit of credit, right? I think that this is the kind of situation where you fall in love with the person, and their personality, not necessarily how gorgeous they are, alas, I’m lucky, he’s a gorgeous, and wonderful man too. I find passion endearing, and beautiful!

I think up until now I’ve been happy being solo and being everyone’s ‘go to’ for relationship advice but now, it’s weird, that’s changed. Don’t worry girls you can still ask me for help!

All I’m saying is that, whenever I get a text from you, I get the most serious case of butterflies, it might even cause me to stutter, and let’s be honest, I’m hardly the stuttering type… You make me nervous, and you might be the only man in the history of forever to succeed in doing so, and you make me wanna tell you everything, I just constantly want to talk to you I guess, I love hearing about things that interest you, your work, your life, anything really.

I honestly think you can tell a lot about someone if you look at them when they’re talking about something they’re passionate about, because for that moment, instead of worrying about what they’re saying, or how they look, they’re completely captivated in explaining something they love, you don’t see passion like that much these days.

I like the idea of spending days not doing much, but spending time with you, the idea of being able to just talk and go for strolls etc. I feel like you bring out the best in me, but if I might be so cocky as to say so I feel I do the same for you.

You’re such a beautiful man, kindness runs through your blood and you can see you care just by the way you look at people, precisely me, every day you surprise me, you’ve managed to restore my faith in people, and maybe not be so cynical when it comes to relationships, and love.

I guess I’m just saying it’s not even just head over heels any more, it’s next level… You’re one very special, gorgeous man, and I’m really not sure what I would do without you and I don’t think I’d like to find out.

I’m gonna shut up now, because I probably sound like a first class idiot. Enjoy.

Thanks for everything.

All my love,

H. xo

May. 21 2013